So I've disappeared from the blogosphere for oh, about 2 months. Its been a rough 2 months. Right about the time I started this blog, my husband and I found out that we were expecting. So I gotta admit that I had other motives than just recipes... I thought it would be fun to talk about the experience of becoming a mommy. Then I got sick and could eat nothing but strawberry yogurt and crackers. New recipes?? I think not.
Then in March, I had a miscarriage at 12 weeks. And I think I'm ok and ready to talk about it now.
I had no idea how common miscarriage is. The more I talk about it, the more women I meet who have suffered through one, or know someone very close to them who has. As I read, experts estimate that anywhere between 30 and 50 percent of pregnancies end in miscarriage, most before 8 weeks. What was most amazing to me about this was... how shocked I was. And how shocked many of my friends were shocked. How did a bunch of young women (who are getting very close to not being so young anymore!) get this far into life without realizing this?! I met with my doctor when Randy and I decided we were going to "try". I learned about diet, exercise, prenatal vitamins and ovulation. But never was the risk of miscarriage discussed. I'm not the activist type, but I just really think it's interesting that it's not talked about.
On a personal note, it's been a really hard month or so. I really got my head wrapped around the idea of becoming a mommy, so it's been really hard to let go. I feel like this pregnancy was the background music to my day. So now that it's gone, it feels so... quiet. Like when you can't sleep without a little white noise... the silence is deafening. I'm better now, SO thankful for the loving support of my family and friends, and the Divine Mercy prayer. My aunt put it best when she said, "Sometimes, Christ carries you."
So this week, I've got 2 new dinner recipes on the menu. (I'll post one or both if they're good.) I made an apple pie with lavender vanilla sugar, and I'm planning on making homemade granola. So... I guess I'm back!! Thanks for hanging in there with me. God bless!!
I just happened across your blog on Facebook and wanted to say that I'm sorry about your miscarriage. I've had three of them and you're absolutely right that it can feel like something you don't hear much about until you have a miscarriage yourself and then other women come out of the woodwork to tell you that they've been there too. I will keep you in my thoughts and hope for better days in your future.
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